drama is what i love!

my head is burning...perhaps i am on the very edge of exploding...work is whats making that happen.
it is now my third year in uni, i have officially declared my major which is now "performace communication" or as most students call it shortly 'PC' i only declared my major as PC because i thought i would be doing alot of acting and stage performances, well so far theres nothing to do with performing, guess i proved myself wrong. disappointed, i feel truly disappointed. i mean...performing is really one of those things im SURE i love. i dont know whether i am born for it or not but i do believe that i have a gift for this type of thing. Drama, acting, improvising is what im good at. in high school i was always the person who got voted at best at the subject Drama. we had 'best at maths' best at english' 'best at Science' and so on and i got awards for my drama class at the end of every year...since year 7 until year 11...i remember and cherish these memories dearly! i love love love performances, i am proud to say! im just so sad that i dont get to do all of that in my subjects at uni...whenever there are auditions for plays at my university, i was always so lazy to go...i never thrw myself at these opportunities and now i am in deep regret! i will be there at the next audition...i hope i am not too late
oh i went to a musical last week it was called 4pandin the 4 reigns of Kings in Thailand สี่แผ่นดิน
it was very very good, and i got so jealous of everybody on stage...i just realized how much i need to be up there..anywhere, just on stage. i miss the feeling terribly and ive never fogotten how it feels to be up there all lights on me...it just felt so right. one day! ill make it if i believe in myself because thats what i truly love and enjoy doing :)

here are some pictures of whats been happening lately...
until next time....x

bubble machine before demo!

fallabella

was having dins with my Mumi

My Daddy and Mumi :)

My sweetest Granny, I love her with all my heart :)

talking about the flood, Thailand

i am here! wow you have no clue how much i miss blogging! just couldnt find the time to do so, looks like i havant update my blog in forever! i am surprised, i gained 1 more follower hehe thankyou :) so now i have 2 followers hahahahaha ill try my best to keep you udated and entertained then :p


First of all, the flooding was disastrous in my places in Thailand...i shouldve blogged about it but i guess i forgot about how i had a blog at that time, i felt so upset and scared. Watching the news made all the difference, it makes you panic so much. I cant help but feel sorry for all those people and thier lost...it is really devastating. As you all may know Thailand isnt exactly what you call a developed country just yet, many people who are affected by the flooding were not rich, what they face everyday in life could be a struggle already but when the flood hit, they lose nearly everything. all their lives, to have a home, to have things in their home, to live day by day and earn a living for their family... i had tears in my eyes everyday when i watched the news..it was really that bad, you would not know and im trying my best to explain to you in words (words just wont do) The water level varied from places to places, in some places, a 2 storey house was underneath water...literally. let me put it this way, a whole house is gone, water was everywhere. Some said it is worst then a tsunami which hits, then goes away instantly but here in our situation the water stayed for months... Thailand flooding 2011, will be remembered...but there is a rumor that its coming back in 2012...this very year.


 My house was also flooded! the water level inside my house got up to knees length! in the garden, the water level reached a person's waist or even more. i cant tell you exactly because i was never actually there (i went to grandma's place before the water came, and i couldnt come back, the water came so fast without a warning) Transport by cars? NO. it was impossible unless you dont mind your car breaking down. the only transports that could get you from one place to another was by boat (yes the water was that high) my maid stayed at my home throughout the whole thing...all things and furniture were moved upstairs, my dogs were taken to my parents workplace, my fishes were even taken away tooo! all living things safe but my maid stayed to look over at the house and we communicate nearly everyday by phone.... before the water came, when the water started to rise, when the water started to turn green and stinky, when rescue boats came and offered her water and food supplies (but she had plenty, we made sure she had everything), when the water level decreased and when it all went away....my maid was there! and the mess...ouch. well...my whole garden was totally wiped out. all the beautiful flowers trees and plants...ive only been home 2 times since the water went away due to the damages made to the house, water drainage etc my parents are not so worried like i am, they stay over at their work place whe the flooding happened. so basically...i barely go home nowadays since the flood and its making me so sad..i miss my dogs so much, like never before. i miss alot of people in my family lately, like last night i couldnt sleep because i miss them so much. i envisioned the future..i hate how i always think of death..ah this is getting sad but the truth is you are born, and then one day you must die. it is all very natural in every living creature on earth right? :)


i have many other things to say to you...but i got to get back to my homework now...i miss you will be back soon i promise you all :) x