26 December 2012

its december 12' !!

wow hi guys, its been ages since my last post, i swear i tried to update this thing more but something always got in the way. the problem is i spend hours posting one single post, and i hardly ever have that much time anymore! if im on the internet its usually on my iphone( i just got a new one. yes, if you read my last post well i just got a new iphone after losing about 3?) i dont even keep count anymore. well something like that happened to me again, im so unlucky, as much as i hate these smart phones, i cant live happily without them, they really make my life alot easier! what do you think, you agree with me?
so lets see, i mean too much had happened since my last update. oh my blog had hit over 1000 viewers! hoooray! i hope you get my sarcasm lol, i dont really care or mind about the viewers thing at all! im happy to be sitting here, typing away on a keyboard, usually im typing on an ipad or iphone screen, its a totally different feeling.

ive kind of changed the location of my home. my actual home is in rangsit. my garden. my trees.my dogs. may maid. my living room. my pond full of fishes. my everything . i miss my home so bad. i wish my parents could move back but i understand that the distance betweeen home and where they work is pretty far. My home is considered Bangkok, or the very outer of the city. its actually Pratumthani not even Bangkok! oh i miss miss miss misss home so bad. cant mum or dad just send in a mechanic to fix the aircons!!! after the major flooding in Thailand ive only been back there 3 or 4 times. and only slept over once, with no aircon, windows open and just a fan  in my bedroom swinging all night hahaha i need to go back soon. i promise to myself. i miss my Buddy and Lemonte too bad now :( feel like crying many times

i got braces! AND mum got them as well! hahaha she got them one week before me! and we always have dentist appointments on the same day, same docter too actually :p im sure i have not blogged about this lol! well, its beginning to all fall nicely into place, my teeth i mean, im glad i got them. my dental clinic is at yenarkard road called DC ONE if anyone is interested, the place is very nice, not like a dental clinic, its not white, theres no dental smell, really nice bakery cafe is also located within the clinic:) when you step inside you dont feel tension you get when you visit a dentist! Dr. Selinee is also a very nice dentist:)

i finally got a new car! after major car accidents, i crashed into the car infront of me because i was trying to open  a box of strawberry pockys, i crashed into a monsterous 16 wheel truck infront of my uni while i was on the phone and lost concentration, i slept while driving and crashed into a person, who survived! yes he survived,it was a severe accident. P Kung was the unfortunate guy, who i crashed my honda CRV into in year 2010 (i think). i totally fucked that car up, seriously. now it looks the same from the outside but the engine and all the insides are messed up! the engines roars liek a truck when i start it, before i crashed many times it was so much smoother! now it freaks me out a little when i get in it :(  i was in my 2nd year of uni at that time, horrible. i was in horrible state, mind body everything. my parents are the most generous for even buying me a new car,
it isnt my dream car, its like..a car i never dreamt of having, i never wished for too much. i wanted a VW beetle since i was in high school! i still love it until this very day! then changed my mind to a mercedez C-class. Now i got this ... (but i am currently driving mum's car at the moment, and i kind of wrecked it, no wonder she dont let me drive the new one) can you possibly imagine how i feel? its a happiness i cant describe, like i didnt expect to get this but i got it kind of feeling and it leaves me...happy but not excited happy you know. So overall im not even sure if im happy.and now im not even driving it around that much, mini cooper or beetle maybe i feel like it fits me alot more...

 did i tell you about my trip to Hong Kong? No, i did not even upload pictures or blog about it! well, it was a fun trip, the first day i got there, it was so windy, and we were warned to stay inside our hotel due to a big storm at level 7! i freaked out but on the next day the storm calmed, disappeared more like! The food was horrible, they took us to restaurants with bad food! that was the worst part which should be the best if they wanted me to be impressed! im a major foodie so the catering was what i looked forward to most. it turned out so shit, out of all the meals only was was OKAY, okay as in not good and not bad, like average but the rest were like below average! my friends on the trip introduced me to this makeup remover "Bioderma" which is a cleasing water you put on to cotton pads and wipe off your face. its really good, works very well for me:) disneyland was well "disneyland" ill always like it though i know its getting boring! i wish i did more shopping though.

im about to graduate soon, this term and then another summer session and im done with university. its sad to be finally saying goodbye to uni life, one step older, one step closer to real life, thats how i feel. ive always felt young, i still feel young and not ready to let life take on me, or me take on life!? haha i should be taking on life, this is, my life. i love being young, feeling free, beng carefree, i dont know if ill ever feel this way again. its really a once in a life time thing. everyday happens only once. well if you really think about it, today is the 27th December 2012 which will never ever come around again. see? once in a life time thing happening everyday so make everyday count, make it worth something. im telling you, but i also feel like my life is being wasted at times. many things are wasted, time, money... it scares me sometimes to feel that my childhood is coming to an end. then i think no, my childhood is not over, what determines the ending of it? because age? but age are numbers...my childhood may still be with me forever:) as im typing im munching on crisps too, salt and vinegar. i skipped dinner, i had grapes but now my diet failed miserably! thank you junk food!

my xmas, just passed a few days ago was very normal. i bought little gifts for friends, my special one and my mumi:) buying gifts really makes me happy! also got myself a sephora makeup box set, its pretty cool but i think the eyeshadows are poor quality. well i only got it for 2200 and there are like 50 shades or something - lipglosses and blush. and New years is coming very sooon. lots of rumours are spreading about the 'end of the world' day. well we must be punished for what we did to earth eventually. if its really ending, let me die by my side the ones i love, my family:) im scared to death, one night i was not able to sleep, i was over thinking it... im more calm about this situation now. Thank you God for today, for life, for blessing me with Love.





Mumi and I on Mother's day 2012:) Love you the most my beautiful lady!






Life now? studying, my performance communication workshop is still on, its the 2nd one now, im still in the PR department, in charge of the media, like promoting our work. this time we're doing a showcase of a stage play, an event, and a exhibition, so 3 in 1! its bigger, much more complicated and im going to be more dedicated this time:) im also always at emporium for a stats tutoring session! stats is hard, but not as hard as i expected, its hard when i dont put alot of effort into it. i have learned that everything becomes so much easier when i put my mind to it. i got to work on that and keep my level of effort up! i go out quite alot, well 3 times or more in one week. i still eat out al the time, one thing that never changes! hahaha other than going out tohang out with friends im always shopping, normally i go shopping with mumi because i dont have to spend a dime :p but i do buy things i like when i see it. shopping really sets my mood to happy! shopping really helps when im grumpy or stressed out, oh now thats why they call it shopping threapy. well it sure works on me! i have another trip coming up, its Japan again! im very excited for this trip, its going to be my third time in Japan, will update you on my trip with lots of pictures! my goals? to shop and shop and SHOP! yes! lots of makeup, eyelashes and snacks hehe just thinking of it makes me happy already!

08 May 2012

why am i so horrible and irresponsible?

seriously...what is it with me and mobile.. smart phones?!!!  Blackberries, Iphones... in the past, before all of these high technology items were ever invented, i never even lost one at  all. back then as a child i still remember so well, playing that snake game on my black and white nokia phone. i hate how i cant be responsible whenever it comes to these smart-ass-phones! altogether, i lost about 7-8 blackberries, 2 iPhones, and within a short period of time. i just got another iphone 4s a few days back... my previous one was also a 4s... and guess what it was a 64gb memory storage phone and i had 6500+ pictures stored inside!!!!!! oh my god o my god. it happened last saturday 28.4.2012 at esco bar...and the next day mum was tooo nice to buy me another one omg. it was actually one of the most horrible nights ever, knowing i had lost it again, it was everything to me, so many wonderful memories!  i was so sober, wasn't drunk at all! they were a gang of thieves, they were quite professional, 2 of my friends on the same night, same table with similar bags also got their phones stolen...its not coincidental. and my iphone case was a limited edition lucien case!!!! i loved it so much, it was so pretty, shocking pink with a big white heart. Mumi warned me not to take it with me but i did not listen ....horrid child i am, just wanted to show off the beautiful case in the night lights and look where it got me. damn. like.... i am speechless now. im just the most irresponsible human being ever, i just feel so disappointed and ashamed of myself, i pity myself, i pity my parents. i feel so sad for my parents yet they still buy me another, and another...im paying for this one myself, i swear. in the past mum keeps buying it for me, then id say okay ill pay you back monthly, then i never do..and within a few months i end up losing another phone. i just have to put an end to this right now, i hate seeing myself become this person. when will i grow up?????? i need to...punish myself somehow, someway.......
p.s. i cant stop thinking about all the pictures on that phone...pictures of my family, my friends, my pets...thats the saddest part i want the memories back :(

16 February 2012

drama is what i love!

my head is burning...perhaps i am on the very edge of exploding...work is whats making that happen.
it is now my third year in uni, i have officially declared my major which is now "performace communication" or as most students call it shortly 'PC' i only declared my major as PC because i thought i would be doing alot of acting and stage performances, well so far theres nothing to do with performing, guess i proved myself wrong. disappointed, i feel truly disappointed. i mean...performing is really one of those things im SURE i love. i dont know whether i am born for it or not but i do believe that i have a gift for this type of thing. Drama, acting, improvising is what im good at. in high school i was always the person who got voted at best at the subject Drama. we had 'best at maths' best at english' 'best at Science' and so on and i got awards for my drama class at the end of every year...since year 7 until year 11...i remember and cherish these memories dearly! i love love love performances, i am proud to say! im just so sad that i dont get to do all of that in my subjects at uni...whenever there are auditions for plays at my university, i was always so lazy to go...i never thrw myself at these opportunities and now i am in deep regret! i will be there at the next audition...i hope i am not too late
oh i went to a musical last week it was called 4pandin the 4 reigns of Kings in Thailand สี่แผ่นดิน
it was very very good, and i got so jealous of everybody on stage...i just realized how much i need to be up there..anywhere, just on stage. i miss the feeling terribly and ive never fogotten how it feels to be up there all lights on me...it just felt so right. one day! ill make it if i believe in myself because thats what i truly love and enjoy doing :)

here are some pictures of whats been happening lately...
until next time....x
bubble machine before demo!

fallabella

was having dins with my Mumi

My Daddy and Mumi :)

My sweetest Granny, I love her with all my heart :)

11 February 2012

talking about the flood, Thailand

i am here! wow you have no clue how much i miss blogging! just couldnt find the time to do so, looks like i havant update my blog in forever! i am surprised, i gained 1 more follower hehe thankyou :) so now i have 2 followers hahahahaha ill try my best to keep you udated and entertained then :p


First of all, the flooding was disastrous in my places in Thailand...i shouldve blogged about it but i guess i forgot about how i had a blog at that time, i felt so upset and scared. Watching the news made all the difference, it makes you panic so much. I cant help but feel sorry for all those people and thier lost...it is really devastating. As you all may know Thailand isnt exactly what you call a developed country just yet, many people who are affected by the flooding were not rich, what they face everyday in life could be a struggle already but when the flood hit, they lose nearly everything. all their lives, to have a home, to have things in their home, to live day by day and earn a living for their family... i had tears in my eyes everyday when i watched the news..it was really that bad, you would not know and im trying my best to explain to you in words (words just wont do) The water level varied from places to places, in some places, a 2 storey house was underneath water...literally. let me put it this way, a whole house is gone, water was everywhere. Some said it is worst then a tsunami which hits, then goes away instantly but here in our situation the water stayed for months... Thailand flooding 2011, will be remembered...but there is a rumor that its coming back in 2012...this very year.


 My house was also flooded! the water level inside my house got up to knees length! in the garden, the water level reached a person's waist or even more. i cant tell you exactly because i was never actually there (i went to grandma's place before the water came, and i couldnt come back, the water came so fast without a warning) Transport by cars? NO. it was impossible unless you dont mind your car breaking down. the only transports that could get you from one place to another was by boat (yes the water was that high) my maid stayed at my home throughout the whole thing...all things and furniture were moved upstairs, my dogs were taken to my parents workplace, my fishes were even taken away tooo! all living things safe but my maid stayed to look over at the house and we communicate nearly everyday by phone.... before the water came, when the water started to rise, when the water started to turn green and stinky, when rescue boats came and offered her water and food supplies (but she had plenty, we made sure she had everything), when the water level decreased and when it all went away....my maid was there! and the mess...ouch. well...my whole garden was totally wiped out. all the beautiful flowers trees and plants...ive only been home 2 times since the water went away due to the damages made to the house, water drainage etc my parents are not so worried like i am, they stay over at their work place whe the flooding happened. so basically...i barely go home nowadays since the flood and its making me so sad..i miss my dogs so much, like never before. i miss alot of people in my family lately, like last night i couldnt sleep because i miss them so much. i envisioned the future..i hate how i always think of death..ah this is getting sad but the truth is you are born, and then one day you must die. it is all very natural in every living creature on earth right? :)


i have many other things to say to you...but i got to get back to my homework now...i miss you will be back soon i promise you all :) x

28 September 2011

20th

Hi hi ! Wow I have not updated my blog in a while now, been wanting to do so but I've been quite busy. It's the final exams period for me so I've been doing a lot of revision lately! Mm well it was my birthday!!! Hahaha now I'm officially 20 years old now, on the 20th September!! Young, happy and proud! I didn't have a birthday party though, I just didn't feel like it although it is my 20th, yes NUMBER 2 enters my life wowowowow exciting... not. The fact is age are just numbers... Now havant we all heard that before?! Haha anyways I did get a surprise birthday cake from my baby and I love love love the bday preset from Mumi hehe it's gorgeous! (maybe a new car at the end of this year? Please... Hahaha) oh I have never told you guys about my many car accidents have I??? Ahh.. Well maybe not let's just say I had a lot of car accidents. Some of them were pretty horrible... I mean really really horrible. I survived though..and that is all that matters right!?
What else is interesting mmmmm .. Oh I still have 1 follower so far hahaahahahahaaha how awesome look and she is my Besty Melissa hehe
My favorite song now is "i want you" Ceylo Green! Yes yes loves it!!
Can't upload my pictures on iPad ;( sorry guys

12 August 2011

excited

hi guys! im so happy to be blogging now need to fill you guys in for anyone who is interested in my life haha well im very excited tomorrow! im meeting all my babes including melissa aura shane sasha mae and more more more..really dont know who will turn up but we'll be doing lunch together at this french restaurant in soi sumkumvit 19 then we'll spend the whole day together..then its dinner time i forgot the name of the restaurant my friend wants to dine at..(again) but she, as in melissa wants to do pre-drinks at clouds and i have no clue about whats next but im down for anything! i miss everyone so much :)
so..my gosh i am getting sick of myself..this week i forgot so many things including my phone, my makeup bag (which contains lots of my fave MAC lipsticks and lipsgloss..i lost my makeup bag two times this week! i also forgot a camera... can you believe it and also at the same place which is the IT building of my university. omg i am too forgetful these days, its getting so annoying! i really have to bring myself to REMEMBER all these items, they dont cost like 199baht..or even if it did i must know the value of all my belongings right?
this week was full of traffic jams.. was stuvk in the car with my bf for hourssss. more than one day too! i hate bangkok traffic, the rain makes it even worse...
today is MOTHERS day in Thailand...:) i want to say i love my Mumi so much, no one can ever love me like you do and for you i will do anything :) i love you so much mumi, nothing compares to you and i know that this is eternal..a mothers love between her child, nothing can be as true as this... its 'forever' ... :)  hoping that we'll meet on sunday! my parents are extremely busy and i am also busy with uni work..busy busy busy. if im older i wish to work near them at the same place so we meet like 24/7!! hehe

30 July 2011

bdays!

hello ! my midterm exams are over!!! arrgh finally!  it went wellm for some subjects. the photography exam was terrible though..we have no holiday at all after exams but atleast there are no more exams and i am very glad! all the weight off my shoulders :) guys! im addicted to this food game..."bakery story'' anyone happen to be addicted to it or know it? lol i think its a game on facebook? if im correct.. well ive never been a gamer, as in ive never liked playing games not since i was like 10 years old...that was the play station! i dont know! ive been baking croissants, red velvet cake, carrot cake, chocolate tarts, cinnamon rolls..oh so much more! face glued to my phone haha..it really annoys people around me though, it also annoys me that im so addicted  to a silly baking game!! haha

 
 oh guys, im a little happy...many friends said i lost weight! yey..im glad someone's noticed a change..i did lose a few kilos! and im stuill working on it. but last night i had mcdonalds at 2am! hahaha i love mcdonalds drive thru, couldnt be bothered to sit and eat..i had a oreo mcflurry oh i just love ice cream! especially at 2am yes..then i had nuggets and boneless chicken with mayo and the chilli sauce.oh yes it was so yummy!  junk food at night is always the best, especially after parties... do we all agree?? lol

 im so happy to be home..wearing one of my fave PJs with strawberries,cupcakes,cherries and ice cream print..sounds cute right ..well it is very cute hehe and comfortable too! 2mrw i hope mumi and i can go shopping..i miss hanging out with mum so bad shes always so busy boo!!!

p.s. and...last but not least Happy Birthday to my BESTEST bestie ever, MAE!!! we've been friends since high school..i miss hanging out with her so bad :( i miss having out with evrybody actually now everyone's busy with their bfs or gfs...and we just have less time together..same as me, and its so sad you know. being single is the best when all your besties are also single!!! if you know what i mean :) we havnt even met on her bday 29th July..but im hoping i will meet her 2mrw but she still has not confirmed.... waiting.... i love her, shes the best :)  and shes such a small woman so scared im gona crush her when we hug lol so i have to hug her gently with care :) ill take some pics and post some more laters :)

so many birthdays in june! next week will be my bfs bday! reminds me of september, so many people i know are born in september...
will be back to keep you updated :) xoxo